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December 2016

One and One and Love

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He wanted to tell the truth

But it frightened him

They frightened him

The faces

And the voices

That would never comprehend.

The way water slips through

Your hands,

He let thoughts

Drip all the way down

To the ground

Out of sight of those whose gazes

Set mazes before the ways

He wanted to go

Like fences erected

Motives inspected

By minds that never understood

Where he stood

In the first place.

“Sit down,”

He thought

And the thinking

Brought overthinking

And a sigh filled with regret

For what he could not do,

What no one knew he could

And

For the necessary rhythms

He had to walk over

And out to complete the tune.

The moment came

Like it had before

When he needed to live

Felt the desire to explore

But not just explore

Like he had before

This time with courage

And a sense of pride

And the fire that being alive

Alive

Lit inside his mind,

The will and the passion

To thrive

Not only survive.

“Survival is a ruse,”

He thought.

“What I need is a muse,”

He thought.

And he found one

On the other side of town

Where no one knew him—

Okay, he had to face it,

No one knew him here

Either—

Unknown

But not quite alone

He felt his purpose grow

Out of their sight

Into the night

Where the we’s gather

Whose names and faces

Are all they would ever see.

A moment came

When the expectations—

And his name—

Fell to the floor

Shattered in pieces

Exposing the core

Of what he was

And was not

And all he forgot,

The rules and the fuel

Like kerosene,

That he wanted to lead the way

Yesterday

But not today.

Today, he wanted something

His

And only his

Where the passion rang true

And the choosing was

Easy to choose

Because of

Her.

Her misunderstood was clear

To him

And no longer something

For her to fear

Because he brought her near

And saw what she needed

Him

To see and to hear

This is where he could sigh

Let his armor fly

Where she could smile

And dance

Like a child

In the midst of a world

Still unchanged

But new

Because what used to be one

And one

Became two

And all they knew

Was the truth.

 

copyright Jill Szoo Wilson

(Photo Credit: This poem was inspired by German artist Mark Slavin’s piece, A Man and His Ego, 50 x 35,5 cm, Watercolor (only black) on Torchon paper.  Please feel free to further explore Mark’s art on his website and/or Facebook page: Mark’s Website ,  Mark’s Facebook Page)

 

The Rattling Man

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(Photo Credit: This poem was inspired by German artist Mark Slavin’s piece, Pub, 48 x 50 cm, watercolor on torchon paper.  Please visit his website and/or his Facebook page to further explore his work: Mark Slavin’s Art Website , Mark Slavin’s Facebook)

 

As the Transom window above

Coughed out a puff of smoke,

His Rocks glass below rattled

With liquor and hope—

Those bluffs of the mind

Where fairytales slither into time

And whisper their stories to men

Who sweat to believe.

 

 

“Beer before wine,

feeling fine,”

He remembered

In an audible reflection

From his university days

When his path was being laid—

Stepping-stones to this place.

 

 

His brown leather shoe

Shook as he waited

Releasing inner vibration

Anticipation of

What he had to say

About what he already

Had done

And he rolled a cigarette

While he watched for his friend

To come.

 

 

The poison lifted

Far more quickly

Than it could be sifted

To the open air beyond

These shadows—

And so his cigarette burned

Into and onto his chest—

 

 

He bit the nail of his thumb

Then another one

Pretending to groom

But exhuming the record of

Impending doom

Skipping in his mind

Like vinyl marred by drizzles of perfume.

 

 

Then a silhouette he knew

Stood in the doorway

Where light behind and

Darkness within

Blinded the Rattling Man

To the visage of his

Friend.

 

 

Tall, with a balding head

Features large enough

To match his frame

And a limp to one side

As he walked toward the table—

The Rattling Man smiled

As wide as he was able.

 

 

The towering man

Laid his hand on his friend

Like a father consoling

With no words to say

And he laughed

Just a little

Because he understood the pain.

 

 

“Give me a real drink,”

The tall man called to the bar

Something brownish, no ice,

Was poured

And they sat for a moment

Drinking and

Not saying a word—

 

 

The way men do

When emotions slither around

Like venomous snakes and

The stakes are a little too high.

 

 

The Rattling Man lowered his head

A gesture of shame

Drowning in dread

He whispered the story

From the top to the end,

The deafening twists

And the blinding bends.

 

 

The Transom sputtered and wheezed

Squeezed the smog and the secrets

Through and away

Nothing could stay

Or the toxic fumes

And the names that it knew

Would choke it, finally, to death.

 

 

The towering friend

Opened the spigot

Between his ears

And his heart

The art of brotherhood

Washing him in lines

Of this play and his part—

 

 

“Once you were blue

and now you are green,”

He started with a metaphor

He hoped the Rattling Man

Would follow and see,

“Your She is the yellow

that blended the hue.”

 

 

“And now what should I do?”

 

 

The Transom lifted her eyes

To the clouds rolling by

She exhaled the question

With a vocalized sigh

Then watched it swirl

Like a flock of black birds

Floating atop a current of thickening words.

 

 

The men looked down

At the liquid they trusted

With no way to straighten

What was already adjusted

They grew silent and waited

For the next thing to say

As the Rattling Man

Drowned in green-colored thoughts

Then drifted

Further

And further

Away.

 

copyright Jill Szoo Wilson

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